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February 13th, 2002

succumbing to the meme @ 12:52 am

Current Mood: cathartic
Current Music: Electronic, Tighten Up

About 10 years ago I...
1. was living in Chicago and away from home for the first time.
2. finally got on the Internet (and IRC)
3. was on my second college
4. had a few friends, but few peers
5. had no idea what I was going to do when I grew up

About 5 years ago I...
1. was living in Ann Arbor, MI (after having been to Boston, Austin, and Denton)
2. started giving up on the idea of getting a college degree
3. started (effectively) living by myself again after weezyl went off to grad school
4. made a few close friends, but still damn few peers
5. started being a computer "professional"

About 2 years ago I...
1. was living in Sunnyvale, and working for the first company and job I really wanted to work for.
2. went to Burning Man for the first time
3. went through the wedding ceremony (closer to 3 years ago)
4. got to know a damn fine bunch of friends and peers
5. began to feel like part of a community

About 1 year ago I...
1. started thinking seriously about moving to SF or Oakland
2. started going to a lot more parties/raves/whathaveyou
3. told weezyl I wanted a divorce
4. started thinking about what I wanted from myself
5. started feeling comfortable and accepted about where I was

Today I...
1. look in the mirror and think "has it really been 10 years? am I really almost 30?"
2. am still boggled/scared/awed by the possibilities ahead
3. think that despite depression and misery and the albatross of "potential", I've done OK.
4. know that come hell or high water, I have to tread my own path - even if it hurts
5. know that even though the vast majority of people are ignorant assholes, I still love people anyway.
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Date:February 13th, 2002 03:20 am (UTC)

You too?

Makes me feel better about not finding any peers until recently . . . well, I'm still not sure I have any; there are people who think on the same wavelength and have the same interests/skillset, but they're all on different social strata. But, close enough.
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Date:February 13th, 2002 11:14 am (UTC)

Re: You too?

It sucks to be young. You frequently don't know what you wanna do, get overwhelmed with social pressures, and don't have a whole lot of control over your life.

Why do people want to be young again? Partially to look younger, partially because some things are a _fuck_ of a lot easier (going to college, for instance), partially because you can be profoundly stupid and get away with it because you're inexperienced.

Enjoy your irresponsibility. :)
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Date:February 13th, 2002 04:09 pm (UTC)

Re: You too?

When the Gods were handing out irresponsibility passes, I must have dropped mine on the floor. I had to LEARN how to have fun that wasn't profoundly meaningful, starting a few years ago, around the same time I started learning social skills. First acid trip will do that. I'm still working on figuring out how to do bloody idiotic things and have fun doing them. ;-)

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