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June 26th, 2003

my last post from pastoria @ 01:20 am

Current Mood: cathartic, quiet
Current Music: the overhead fan squeaking to itself

I've been my usual ultra-cheerful, emotionally stable self today. I wrote this in my journal:
Sometimes I really, really want to be angry - to be vicious, and to enjoy being so - to take mirth and joy in beating somebody down and shoving in their face that they're wrong, wrong, wrong and misguided and pathetic for even considering what they were doing to be right. To enjoy a well-crafted lie that ends up being hyperreally true. To be justified in everything I do. It would ultimately end up feeling hollow, and make myself willingly and happily and bitterly and miserably.
I can only think of one time in the past year where my anger flared up anywhere even approaching that point (on my birthday, actually.) I haven't actually blown my top since '00.
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Date:June 26th, 2003 02:58 am (UTC)
i love you moofette
Date:June 26th, 2003 06:51 am (UTC)

off-topic, as always

I am trying to imagine that as a Suicidal Tendencies song. It's working, too.
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Date:June 27th, 2003 12:22 am (UTC)
There's something fun about breaking bottles... although it's much more fun to have a set of china that you don't mind breaking. You should see what happens when you start throwing teacups...

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