?

Log in

No account? Create an account

moof's prattling

babblebabble


January 11th, 2003

even more emotional turmoil @ 07:01 pm

Current Mood: exhausted exhausted
Current Music: Aerosmith, Permanent Vacation

I was driving home from lunch when my mood decided to crash. Got home, wailed for a while, and then went out to try and be social - even passively - and to Do Something. Went do Dana Street, had some coffee, walked around and ran into the youdidit folks, went to GameScape to try and purchase Little Fears. I was so out of it that I utterly failed to mention that both Jamie and Sean were there, until I walked up to the counter. Asked them to order Little Fears for me, started driving home, and more sobsville. I don't know what the fuck is going on. The feelings aren't attached to anything, as far as I know - they're just there.

I'm not sure which flavor of depression I get is worse - this 'sad, lonely, tired and drained, impossible to get going, nauseously not hungry' flavor, or the 'dread, nothing is enjoyable, slightly not hungry, no motivation, detached feeling' kind.

 
Share  |  |

Comments

 
[User Picture Icon]
From:fonem
Date:January 11th, 2003 10:25 pm (UTC)

sweet moof

(Link)
they are both pretty nasty huh.

i have had a bit of a relapse lately, probably because of the winter weather (i am definitely not used to the lack of sunlight). but i have been forcing myself out, to be distracted, and i think this is the best solution even if it doesn't always completely work.

i find when i break down sobbing (like i have twice this week) i tend to do 2 things habitually. i drink a couple of cups of chamomile tea in the hottest bath i can stand, then get out and lotion myself up but good and get lost in a book. someday soon i hope to be able to pick up drawing again and really enjoy it like i used to before art school destroyed my love of drawing.

anyway, i haven't forgotten your check, we have just been totally poor this month. so sorry.
[User Picture Icon]
From:magicpandadance
Date:January 14th, 2003 12:29 am (UTC)
(Link)
*hugs* i'm sorry hon. if your depression is baseless, you might want to consider medication. i've had terrible expiriances with them, but others have found them able to help when nothing else did. but if you do go that way, keep yourself very infromed.
[User Picture Icon]
From:moof
Date:January 14th, 2003 12:41 am (UTC)
(Link)
Heh. That's _with_ the medication (Wellbutrin) which has helped an awful lot. Some of the assiness is due to reintegration of my emotions with my cognitive side, some of it is depression, and I don't know what else lurks in my haiyud.
[User Picture Icon]
From:magicpandadance
Date:January 14th, 2003 11:31 am (UTC)

Re:

(Link)
well, then here i go suggesting something else that hasn't worked for me... have you tried a therapist?
[User Picture Icon]
From:moof
Date:January 14th, 2003 11:50 am (UTC)
(Link)
Yeah, I'm seeing one right now; she's the one who prescribed the Wellbutrin for me (after Effexor did all sorts of nasty shit); I'm now also going to be trying some wacky new ADHD medication called Strattera; seems my depression is linked in with the inability to concentrate and get things done.

moof's prattling

babblebabble