Depression is very hard!

I know I've had periods of "Hey, I feel great, I just don't understand why I'm sleeping for 14 hours every day this week."

And self-forgiveness is hard to do sometimes.

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Don't worry Moofles, I feel like that a lot too. I think more people do than you realize.

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I read it. I'm sorry times are tough, sweetie.

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Meh, it's true nobody really wants to hear about depression, but at the same time, it's certain nobody who knows you wants you to suffer in silence.

You are so right about the double-jeopardy of depressed thoughts. There's nothing worse than thinking, "I feel like a total fucking tool, lying around all depressed like this." I did it plenty last year. But what can you do? You do feel bad. It's not like you're some deliberately-emo teenager with a bad haircut and too much free time. You just don't feel good for some reason. Are you supposed to go grin at people on street corners? No. People sleep all day when they're down. They get fuck-all work done. They don't find anything fun. That's standard operating practice. There's no reason why you should expect yourself to be magically exempt from it. Sooner or later you figure out how to get out of the funk and then you do, but until you do, you're just being human.

I don't think I can tell you anything that'll actually cheer you up, but I do hope you can find something that can. You could always tell us what's got you down, if you know. There's nothing like distant people of various acquaintance to help you weed your emotional garden. ;)

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Aha. See, that's one of the things that's so goddamned frustrating: I don't think there is anything in particular that's gotten me down. I've got some hints as to a few things, but they're pretty deep in my subconscious.

As far as the B12 goes: the major effect seems to be that it makes me break out really badly. Stupid keratitis pilaris!

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I finally made it to work at 4:30 today, after lying in bed and reading or sleeping all damn day. I was dressed for work and had a lunch packed, all ready go to by 10am, but just could.not.get.out.the.door. I slept and slept over the weekend, and yeah, don't feel depressed in the "I'm down" sense, but damn, can I not motivate myself to do a single thing.

Sorry to hear you're in the same boat, wish I could come by with a bottle of plonk or something to commiserate, but you'll have to take my sympathy and support from afar, instead. *hug*

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